Musician

I have regrets, but you live and learn.

My Number 1 Award is going to go on my mantelpiece, and I'll probably kiss it for two weeks solid every time I pass it!

I want to say sorry for abusing my position as an 'X Factor' winner because I owe everything to this thing.

Having watched 'X Factor' over the years, they just haven't got it right. The male winners haven't been believable. They look like puppets; they sound like puppets.

I really want to work with Eminem. I know it will never happen, but I would love if he let me do a hook on one of his songs or he featured on one of my songs. It would be incredible. I've just always admired him since I was young.

I have people telling me what I can and can't do, what music I can and can't make.

I was on the dole.

I got ideas above my station, and I made mistakes.

There is a lot of pressure on pop stars, and I think a lot of it is the pressure that we put on ourselves. In our minds, we build up these huge, huge standards that we think people want from us, and actually, when you break it down, people just want you to make music and perform to the best of your ability, but anxiety can stop you from doing that.

Everyone wrote me off, including me.

Inside, I'm optimistic.

I've always thought I'm pretty ugly.

I'm always going to have to manage my mental health issues.

I've made some very silly mistakes.

I don't do media training. I don't do that.

I don't know if speaking to a therapist is right for everyone.

I'm not saying none of these guys are talented, but people think Ed Sheeran crawled off a couch and lived on the street or something, but him, Ellie Goulding... they all come from Suffolk, Surrey, Richmond... they come from support.

All my confidence has disappeared because the whole nation thinks I'm a homophobe who looks like a monster.

I don't think about consequences too much.

I'd like to think that maybe the average person is rational, and they realise that I'm not this crazy monster that, at times, I've been perceived to be.