'Mengapa,' katanya, satu kali, di pintu masuk kereta bawah tanah, 'aku merasa aku sudah mengenalmu bertahun-tahun?' 'Karena aku menyukaimu,' katanya, 'dan aku tidak ingin apa-apa darimu.'
Love. Fall in love and stay in love. Write only what you love, and love what you write. The key word is love. You have to get up in the morning and write something you love, something to live for.
If you're embarrassed because you have some notion about how men are supposed to behave, and it doesn't include weeping, then you have some personal work to do.