The process of rewriting is enjoyable, because you're not in that existential panic when you don't have a novel at all.
I have panic attacks here and there, like in the weirdest places ever, and I've learned to deal with them.
I like those crisis moments - if you're on top of it and don't get pulled under by panic and fear, it's a very bonding thing.
The panic attacks - I still have them. They started when I was around 8. They always have to do with my death.
I was not a silly kid or outgoing. In fact, I suffered from quite a bit of anxiety. I used to have panic attacks when I was a teenager, really incapacitating moments, because I had some phobias.
I used to really panic about finals. I didn't understand the concept of how you could have one test that encompasses the entire semester.